Right Mind

March 29, 2010 - 19:07

Forget the rest
Diddy said it best

"I have met a lot of women in my lifetime
But see it's not a lot of women that got the right mind"

See I don't need a lot of women in my life
I'd be perfectly content with just one wife

I don't need different chicks to do one thing
I'd rather one great woman and give her a ring

But I don't take the decision lightly
She has to prove herself mighty

That simply doesn't happen overnight
No matter if her game is tight and right

I need it all, I want it all
I have to love, I have to fall

Otherwise it's all pointless
Pretty always fades into her mess

The person she is matters more than looks
Is she intelligent and educated herself with books

Can she talk about fears, hopes, and dreams
Is there much more to her life than it seems

Does she have goals and ambition of her own
Did she mature, cope, and make herself grown

See it's not about words and what she volunteers
It's all about thought and action, not what she appears

A real woman with class
Not a superficial one with ass

But a pretty face always gets a man stupid
A nice body and you think it must be cupid

Love is not caring about the person you see
It's being unable to imagine life without your we

Not everyone even knows what real love is
They're all about themselves and handling their biz

Selfishness, ignorance, pride, lust reign supreme
Never seeing beauty in cultivating your dreams

Worth based on shallow premises and facts
Not understanding yourself and how you lack

The right mind lies within, beauty runs deep
It's not outward, physical, sexual, or from sleep

I say cultivate your mind, along with the rest of yourself
Care after everything not just parts of your health

But it boils down real simple to find the right one
She tells you right away if you've really won

Simply ask her if she feels she has the right mind
If you see no doubt in her answer, she's not a find

You can watch her words and see her behavior
She'll undo herself no one can save her

There goes another one who paid the cost
She doesn't have the right mind, just another one lost

Lifetime Of Ignorance

March 9, 2010 - 11:28

Life is not about cheddar and cheese
Many more ways than money to please
Greed is why the world is harsh
Why work makes us bust our arse

If money is your sole pursuit
You'll never hear life's gentle flute
Money is nothing but a construct
Its desire making us self-destruct

The best things in life aren't free
But somethings are, go climb a tree
Make a true friend, and you will know
It's time and effort that make the best go


There's much more to life than looks
Beauty, physique, it gets took
Then you're left chalk full of holes
Never cultivating your soul

In the mirror spending hours of each day
Look deep into your eyes to see the way
It's not about appearance and perfection
Accept yourself and forget the attention

Clothes, hair, muscles don't matter
That or happiness, most prefer the latter
Natural beauty radiates from within
It shines in smiles, eyes, that's a win


You only value what someone can do
Can they treat you well and true
The problem: it's not about you
A shame in life you missed that clue

Not all attention that comes is good
You have to discern will from could
Compromise, understanding are rare
Beyond themselves, most do not care

If you want love, you have to give
You can't take and expect to live
Selfish is your sin, your crime
Vanity your vice, you're no dime


Educate yourself and grow
Cultivate your mind and sew
Expand perspective beyond your own
The great beyond, so much unknown

Open up your mind and learn
Understand how your heart yearns
School and books show the path
But it's up to you to make it last

A lifetime is needed, no work complete
Sometimes you lose, don't let it deplete
Create yourself as you want to be
So much great to life, you will see

King Of Shit

March 10, 2010 - 09:52

King Of Shit

Yes shit
Our shit
Ugh shit

A lot of shit
Remember shit
Eat shit

See shit
Own shit

Forget shit
Unknown shit
Lie about shit
Leverage shit

Oh shit
Feel shit

Sell shit
Hear shit
Interesting shit
Touch shit

Take a shit
Hollow shit
Appreciate shit
Taste like shit

Yikes shit
Organize shit
Unlikely shit
Read shit

Ewww shit
Young shit
Every shit
Sick shit

Ahhhh shit
Real shit
Early shit

Buy shit
Realize shit
Original shit
Wow shit
Need shit

Clean up shit
Only shit
Make shit
Even shit

Open shit
No shit

My shit
Your shit

Dirty shit
Under shit
New shit
Green shit

Do shit
Overflowing shit
Neverending shit
Tame shit

Growing shit
Overcast shit

Create shit
Ok shit
Pay for shit
Yank shit
Inside shit
Nookie shit
Get shit

Miss shit
Yearn for shit

Steal shit
Help shit
Irksome shit
Trust shit

Swallow shit
Waste shit
Allow shit
Like shit
Love shit
Outside shit
Write shit

Mellow shit
Yellow shit

Pound shit
Ill shit
Ecstatic shit
Cop that shit
Euphoric shit
Suck that shit

Over shit
Fuck shit

Bull shit
Undying shit
Looking for shit
Lost shit

Same old shit
Happy shit
Insane shit
Teasing shit

Say shit
Illogical shit
Nature shit
Confess shit
Exact shit
Rubber shit
Empty shit
Lick shit
You are so full of shit that your eyes are brown. Come on my dung, don't go copying my shit. Swallow my piece of bull shit. Sincerely,

~Roi de Merde

Deep As Depth

March 16, 2010 - 13:24

Deep As Depth

I can't do shit that lacks depth:

I like my tea straight
I like my liquor neat
I like my meat still bleeding

I like the harsh realities of life
I like the bluntness of truth
I like the liberation of honesty

I don't want sugar or sweet
I don't beat around the bush
I don't lie, cheat, steal, or play games

I want it to rain down, cause after there's a rainbow
I want it raw, unfiltered, unadulterated, as it really is
I want it all, not a little bit, not some, not half, not most, all

Ass

March 17, 2010 - 18:17

Ass

I don't want a woman with class,
I want one with a whole lot of ass.

You can get ass,
but that doesn't mean you'll pass
your class.
So you'll end up nowhere fast,
just mast-
-urbating your way along with crass,
and sass,
so nothing of substance will ever last.
No gas?
You're doomed to repeat the past.

But at least you got some ass.

When I See You Again

March 10, 2010 - 13:48

When I See You Again

I still remember your smile
I can still see your eyes
I'll travel however many miles
I hope our time apart flies

I remember that way you look
The feel of your warmth embrace
I'll even let your pawn take my rook
To see that smile upon your face

I yearn to hear you laugh
I anticipate the moment we meet
I calculated days and did the math
Just tell me where you want to eat

The days countdown one by one
My anticipation grows
It's like a race I've all but won
My body simply knows

Until at last the day arrives
That I will see you in front of me
In your presence we'll strengthen ties
Happy together I shall be

Let's create our own fashion
Make my heart no longer miss
So I can feel my passion
And seal it with a kiss

Her Last

January 14, 2010 - 02:22

Her Last

You remember her smell
Her touch made you dwell
The feel of her soft embrace
You would have run every race

You thought you knew it all
She said you have such gall
You waited night and day for her call
Thinking I refuse to be the one to fall

Now you miss her like a drug
You should be feeling so smug
You did this to yourself you see
You couldn't just let things be

You drove her away from you
All along you wish you knew
You thought she was the one
That feeling swarmed that you had won

But you failed like those before
So she showed you the big door
Now you miss what you once had
And it can make you mighty sad

You realize now but it's too late
Oh if only to go back to your first date
To tell yourself how to make it work
So now you wouldn't be the jerk

Every man wants to be her first
To do it all and quench her thirst
But they all live now in her past
The best in life ends up her last

Real

January 14, 2010 - 10:44

Real

A real woman puts you in your place
Yet knows when to give you some space
She tears you down like a bad rhyme
Building you up to stand the test of time

Every man wants a great woman
We hear about them in each sermon
But can we see one in our eyes
Or do we rush to say goodbyes

A woman knows her role in life
To accept nothing less than as his wife
She needs a man to calm her soul
To feed her sick, straight from the bowl

A strong man needs to be her rock
But soft enough to wear her smock
A real man does all this and more
He keeps her interest, never the bore

But what is real do we know
If we find it can we show
Who we really are deep inside
Put it all aside to enjoy the ride

None of us are strong, all weak
Flaws and mistakes the moment we speak
The pain and suffering, enough to weep
Then quietly leave each other, nay a peep

But then a real woman meets a man
Because not even God has a plan
We decide our own fates, free will
We just all have to pay the bill

You see the woman and man never left
They worked things out by being deft
They stood together, conquering all to rise above
Forgiveness, trust, compromise, communication, and love

Real is what we define
As we start to refine
The essence of ourselves into one
So we can ride, into the setting sun

About My Love

March 5, 2010 - 08:31

About My Love

I know what I want
I know who I am
No matter the cost
I do what I can

No matter how jaded
I put myself aside
Neither of us boss
In you I will confide

I put in the work
I don't give up easy
I'll go to all lengths
I try hard to please thee

The sky isn't a limit
I'm capable of so much
I'm no fake
I know how to touch

I don't lie
I don't cheat
I can love til I die
I'm one of the best you'll meet

You can meet all my friends
We can go to all places
I'm committed to the end
My love will leave traces

I know I'm not perfect
I make mistakes
I admit when I'm wrong
I'll do what it takes

I want all you can give
I'll give all that I have
Together we're better
Our love won't need a nav

I demand you be honest
I ask that you be true
Just put in your full effort
Give me more than clues

If you can understand my worst
I'll give you my best
Put your trust in me
Let's both forget the rest

This I can promise
This is some of what I do
But this is only part of me
Now tell me about you

Does He

March 9, 2010 - 10:28

Does He

Does he look at you the way I did
How does he kiss those pretty lips
Do you talk of raising his kid
Does he appreciate the curve of your hips

Can he massage you the way I could
Is his touch as sensual as mine
Is he willing to go as far as I would
Does he have taste picking out the wine

Will he make you feel better than me
Can he soothe your fears beyond doubt
Does he know the lock and have the key
Do you allow him to have such clout

Is he truly better in all ways
Can he do all that I could do
Is he the one to end all days
Can he stop you feeling blue

Does he love you more than me
Does he look at you and you know
Is everything he gives you free
Can he make you feel high, never low

Is he everything you want anew
Does he help you see and be
I don't think he is the one for you
Simply because he is not me

Someone New

March 6, 2010 - 10:39

Someone New

I hear you have someone new
That's it, we're really through
No more me and you
Nothing more will I do

No more talking until the sun comes up
Goodbye to sharing plate and cup
No more waking up naked together
Our love could have lasted forever

Never again will we make love all night
No more closeness after a big fight
I cannot walk and hold your hand
No takings trips to a far off land

Never more will you understand
You can no longer see my whole plan
I simply cannot trust you again
All these words I cannot send

No more candy, cards, or roses
No sneaking in before it closes
No more long sensual embraces
Never see you in a crowd of faces

No more wanting for your kisses
No longer telling how the heart misses
No day dreaming of seeing you later
No more dancing til the DJ pushes the fader

Never again will I feel us close
No more time with you the most
No more rushing to see you first
You can no longer quench my thirst

No more yearning for your taste
All these feelings turned to waste
Now I must forget your smell
I guess it's all just as well

This is what you want
This is what you chose
Does it even make you feel?
Do you even think of me?

No More Apologies, No More Sorry

March 5, 2010 - 09:33

No More Apologies, No More Sorry

I can apologize for being me
I can say I'm sorry for what I do
It can be my fault for no more we
I can accept blame even if it's not true
Because let's face it, I'm stronger than you

I apologize because I love
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I regret making war over doves
That I treat you with neglect
Deep down I have the utmost respect

But I tire of apologizing for me
I'm only sorry when building us
If there exists no more we
Then I'd rather you go under the bus
What's it matter, if not I, you must

Then I apologize being so selfish
I'm sorry for being so bad
Revenge is a very cold dish
None of it makes me glad
In fact, my actions turn me sad

I apologize for being right
I'm sorry for being wrong
But you have no blame in sight
Your silence is forever long
You have no idea the power of your song

No more apologies I'm through
You're not sorry, you haven't a clue
You seem to seek power in all you do
I can no longer tell what's really true
My feelings, my thoughts, rent is due

I cannot apologize
I refuse to be sorry for me
See things through my eyes
Maybe then you'll truly see
How I felt and wanted us to be

I take back my apologies
I'm sorry for nothing
You belong with the birds, bees, trees
I refuse to hear you sing
No more pain I allow you to bring

I apologize for these thoughts
I'm sorry I can't rise above
Please let's just draw lots
Or confess it wasn't love
Is it you or my bloody glove

The truth is it's both of us
If you hadn't given up so easy
If I had shaken off the rust
But we weren't ready to please
In the end, it simply didn't work

Something Missing

January 14, 2010 - 18:25

Something Missing

I was more than happy by myself
I wanted none, quite full of wealth
I did as I please, feeling complete
I had no need for anyone to meet

I'm not saying I was happy
Some days I still felt crappy
But things were well you see
I was being all I could be

Then you came into my life
It was fun, there was no strife
You gave me just a little taste
Now everything else was but a waste

It grew in days what takes months
Boy did You exposed my fronts
As my heart did open up
My mind refused to say yup

It was my fault you see
The parting of you from me
And in your absence I saw light
Of my pride and how I lost sight

Now I feel something missing
I cannot fly, dance, drink or sing
It's much more than feeling empty
I can't imagine me, without we

The Fear We Love

January 14, 2010 - 10:32

The Fear We Love

Some of us are strong
Some of us are weaker
Yet all of us do wrong
Experience should make us meeker

Some of us put ourselves first
We don't consider or ponder
Quenching our own thirst
Never admitting why we wander

Our life is our own we say
I'm my own person, let me be
Which is how to walk alone each day
Never admitting the pain in me

No one wants to eat alone
We want to share life with another
Not someone who makes us groan
A lover, a friend, like a brother

But who comes first, them or me
Should we sacrifice ourselves for them
Who's to believe, do we trust what we see

Afraid to put the wrong person ahead
Breaking your spirit and your heart
A feeling we all learn to dread
Wishing we all were good and smart

We grow old, we're not invincible
We can't suffer rejection forever
So we learn to stick to a principle
And choose to love, well never

Life is easier to love just I
It's simple and we always keep going
But we need help to touch the sky
The love we want and need, always knowing

Why are we afraid to fall in love
Why do we fear giving another our life
Let's get to it, no more glove
But when we hurt, the cut, like a knife

Who should we love more
Why does it have to be a choice
It takes work the stuff of lore
To love yet stand and keep your voice

The truth is always in the middle
Compromise and trust can make it happen
Make big our hearts what once were little
When fate comes to that door, tappin

You put them first and take that chance
Hoping they do the same for you
But most times you never get to dance
Now fear is gone, bring on the blue

You Can, Can You

1/14/2010 - 01:48

You Can, Can You

You think you know
You believe you can go

The world is yours
You can win all wars

Do all you dream
But make no one scream?

Do nothing but win
Of course committing no sin

But at what cost
The price: you have lost

To win, a loss
You're never your own boss

You try and fail
No wind in your sail

Pick up the pieces
Iron your shirt, no creases

Get your mind right
Your clothes, not too tight

The motto: keep trying
Inside you feel like dying

Fight through the pain
In every loss, there's gain

It takes a toll
Can you perform this role?

But really can you?
Start to make yourself anew?

Make high from low
Because you believe it so?

But can you?
No, you cannot do
You wish it didn't hurt
Well you can't feeling like dirt
Actions speak louder than all words can
Tomorrow will always come, become a better man

How Do I Find The Word To Say I'm Sorry

January 12, 2010 - 14:12

How Do I Find The Word To Say I'm Sorry

How does one find the word to say "I'm sorry"
I'm sorry one, I'm sorry two, I'm sorry three?
Feeling sorry is not the way I want to be
This is not the side of me I wanted you to see

It's better to have nothing to be sorry for
To have no wrongs that I need to find a cure
But here we are with hearts feeling sore
As we add to each others' relationship lore

But imagine if I could find the way to express
How truly sorry I've been and I felt
There's so much more I would want to address
About us and this hand we were dealt

But nothing I do can make you understand
That words just don't mean it
But that is life, we cannot demand
Only hope this bit has not been turned to shit

If there's anything I could do to show you how I feel
It would be to say "I'm sorry" for giving you a raw deal
It would be to change the perceptions you have of me now
So that we could be together, eating some more cow

But I've failed, where many times I did succeed
To express how much I'm sorry, how I want to make things right
But that's the thing about you, you never had a need
You're just fine yourself, I just never saw your light

I misunderstood all that you did say
And I felt neglected in following your way

I wanted more of you, but I couldn't find the words
Now I have none of you, and all I have is words

Wise men say you have to let her go
That in being alone only she will know
Whether she could give me another chance
To show her I'm committed to creating our own dance

So I need to forge a better me, alone
Though I don't want go on feeling like a drone
Time will pass and soon she'll forget me
Nothing but a memory is all that I will be

She'll no longer wonder, what we could have been
She'll be fine apart and meet plenty more real men
But I felt I could be her one, her rock and her support
So she could be all she dreamed, developing our rapport

I remember our time however brief, was it but one day
That this experience has rocked me to my core
So with no other choice, I must reluctantly walk away
Without a voice, maybe I'll sit and remember a little more

And dream what might have been if I had found the word
To express what she means to me but sadly there is no word

Sleepless (Poem/Song)

March 9, 2007 - 04:00

Sleepless

Sleepless, and feeling lost without you
Sleepless, and desperate to talk to you
Lying sleepless and day turns into night
Lying sleepless while night turns back to day

Waking up and painfully missing you
Waking up in cold sweats, thinking about you
Waking up, I'm crying and craving you
Waking up, knowing the next guy's fucking you

Do you smile, the way you smiled when I came?
Does your warm embrace comfort him the same?
Does he feel good, do you even call out his name?
Does he like your sweet taste, why'd you play this stupid game?

It's not about him, it's how you left me
It's not your lying, but why'd you lie to me?
I gave you all of me, but you could not respect me
As you leave me, I know it's best for me

Yet I still lie here sleepless, thinking about you
Lying sleepless, knowing you were not true
Pain and tears are the only things I feel for you
So I'm sleepless, not believing that we're through

I know all of this should come as no surprise
I could feel it festering, I saw through all your lies
I knew you were cheating, and now we've broken ties
Yet as you reject me, something in my heart dies

Are you happy? Then why do your eyes have that look?
Must you hate me? When all I ever wanted you took
No more lovers and friends, yet you're still an open book
Now as strangers, I see you're nothing but a crook

Cold and sleepless, nothing comforts me
I lie here sleepless, all because of you
Sleepless, I don't know him but he's not me
Sleepless, I know her and she's not you

No more sleepless, I can no longer blame me
Lying sleepless, feeling someone's fucking you
Crying sleepless, I need to take care of me
Sleepless, when I look in the mirror I see you

Are you happy? When all you care about is you
Will you ever know, how much I adored you
It's been 3 years and now I know the real you
Are you sleepless? Well that's all on you

Me, Myself, and I

April 9, 2007 - 21:18

Me, Myself, and I

The more I know, the less I understand.
The more I understand, the less I know.
The less I know, the more I feel insecure.
The more insecure I feel, the more I question myself.

The more insecure I am, the more I don’t know myself.
The more I know myself, the more arrogant I become.
The more arrogant I become, the less I like myself.

The more I hate myself, the more certain I feel.
The more certain I feel, the more I know what I want.
The more I know what I want, the less I find what I like.
The more I like what I find, the less I’m sure of what I want.

The more uncertain I am, the more lost I feel.
The more lost I feel, the more depressed I become.
The more depressed I am, the more negative I think.
The more negative I think, the less good I see.
The less good I see, the more I hurt.
The more hurt I feel, the more I suffer.
The more I suffer, the more I question God.
The more I question God, the less I understand.

The more I question God, the more I believe in myself.
The more I believe in myself, the more I trust myself.
The more I trust, the better I feel.
The better I feel, the more confident I become.
The more confident I become, the more I feel I know.
The more I feel I know, the more narcissistic I become.
The more narcissistic I am, the less I care about.
The less I care about, the less I feel.
The less I feel, the more I know.

The more I know...

Loss & Missed Opportunity

August 6, 2007 - 00:57

Loss & Missed Opportunity

Watching your plane take off.
The touch of your skin, how it must have been soft.
Seeing the game from the sidelines.
Another night alone at home, never dressed to the nines.
Waiting for you to leave with things left unsaid.
Not saying what you wanted, and now they're dead.
That empty chair across from me at dinner.
My unplayed favorite numbers, now a winner.
A bottle of wine and just one glass.
Late again to class.
Never getting a chance to say goodbye.
Afraid to take a chance and say hi.

Sometimes it hurts to lose someone you love,
Now that they're gone what were you so afraid of?

When I Stop And Think

July 6, 2006 - 12:30

When I Stop And Think

When I stop and think about it
I would much rather not be single
When I stop and think about it
I'd rather be with one person who cares
If I stop and think about it
I miss that person I was once with
But when I stop and think about it
That one person no longer exists
So I don't stop and think about it
And I don't feel that bit of emptiness
That the one person who doesn't exist
Once filled with exactly what I now miss

The Moment Of Beauty

March 3, 2010 - 16:37

Beauty is buying a rose, as the store's about to close.
It's a forever bouncing ball, right before it hits the wall.
The car's smooth ride, moments before two cars collide.
That surging feeling down, as the plane leaves the ground.
Anticipation trying to cope, watching your favorite team not give up hope.
Your mind a silent sponge, as you jump and take the plunge.
Inside the outside door, about to brave a storm of yesteryore.
Discarding pain and the urge to sit, before you reach the summit.
The crisp smell only a breeze can bring, as the cold air makes your skin sting.
The moment before your lips meet, that first kiss will it be sweet.

What do these moments have in common?

The heart flutters and beats
You can't stay in your seat
The mind races and flies
You hope you haven't died
Consumed with feeling so alive
Like accomplishing a long drive
Better than falling in love
Akin to rising up above
You never forget the feeling
It leaves you breathlessly reeling

As she enters the room
It's like Heaven lowers the boom
All time stops and you look
Her beauty has left you shook