How Do I Find The Word To Say I'm Sorry

January 12, 2010 - 14:12

How Do I Find The Word To Say I'm Sorry

How does one find the word to say "I'm sorry"
I'm sorry one, I'm sorry two, I'm sorry three?
Feeling sorry is not the way I want to be
This is not the side of me I wanted you to see

It's better to have nothing to be sorry for
To have no wrongs that I need to find a cure
But here we are with hearts feeling sore
As we add to each others' relationship lore

But imagine if I could find the way to express
How truly sorry I've been and I felt
There's so much more I would want to address
About us and this hand we were dealt

But nothing I do can make you understand
That words just don't mean it
But that is life, we cannot demand
Only hope this bit has not been turned to shit

If there's anything I could do to show you how I feel
It would be to say "I'm sorry" for giving you a raw deal
It would be to change the perceptions you have of me now
So that we could be together, eating some more cow

But I've failed, where many times I did succeed
To express how much I'm sorry, how I want to make things right
But that's the thing about you, you never had a need
You're just fine yourself, I just never saw your light

I misunderstood all that you did say
And I felt neglected in following your way

I wanted more of you, but I couldn't find the words
Now I have none of you, and all I have is words

Wise men say you have to let her go
That in being alone only she will know
Whether she could give me another chance
To show her I'm committed to creating our own dance

So I need to forge a better me, alone
Though I don't want go on feeling like a drone
Time will pass and soon she'll forget me
Nothing but a memory is all that I will be

She'll no longer wonder, what we could have been
She'll be fine apart and meet plenty more real men
But I felt I could be her one, her rock and her support
So she could be all she dreamed, developing our rapport

I remember our time however brief, was it but one day
That this experience has rocked me to my core
So with no other choice, I must reluctantly walk away
Without a voice, maybe I'll sit and remember a little more

And dream what might have been if I had found the word
To express what she means to me but sadly there is no word