December 9, 2010 - 11:27
The corners of her mouth beginning to smile
The moment she laughs and it makes you smile
The times she puts in effort to go the extra mile
When she picks up the phone and chooses your number to dial
That long talk where you can keep on going forever
When she shows her wit and you find her rather clever
That way you feel when you finally get together
The moment when you feel no matter the weather
The morning glory and how new light makes her essence glisten
After the fight when you realize if you just stop and listen
The feelings in her embrace before you start kissing
When you find yourself yearning and it's her that you're missing
When you're sick she not only knows but delivers the cure
On a bad day she listens, understands, and helps assure
When the world seems daunting, in her eyes lies something pure
You find yourself dreaming of the future and it involves her
It's not about finding her
It's not about falling for her
It's not about keeping her
It's not about giving your all
It's not about staying together
It's about the possibility ...
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Agent of Change
December 6, 2010 - 19:11
Everyone has problems, everyone has a painful past.
That doesn't ensure your fate to suffer is sealed and cast.
Life has troubling storms as well as basking moments of afterglow.
Deranged is dwelling on pain and sorrow not inviting change to sow.
Talk about more than problems.
Leave negativity for the rest of them.
Forget about bad blood, just move forward and on.
Walking towards progress shows true strength, might, brawn.
It is essential to build dialog to understand others.
Turn foes to friends, meet your eternal sisters and brothers.
Support differences for we're ultimately all the same.
Encourage change and growth, break all the rules of the game.
Choose to tell the truth, then it only has to be told and overcome one time.
Don't dwell or linger on the negative, spin it positive, make it sublime.
Strive to make things better, people want to believe there exists a cure.
Forever serious is a burden to most, even the strongest struggle to endure.
Be a part of the solution or get the fuck up out the way.
Don't think, talk, or preach unless you live what you say.
Find your strength, remember your worth, if you must, pray.
Discover your way, remember to pay, cause it all leads to a brighter changed day.
Everyone has problems, everyone has a painful past.
That doesn't ensure your fate to suffer is sealed and cast.
Life has troubling storms as well as basking moments of afterglow.
Deranged is dwelling on pain and sorrow not inviting change to sow.
Talk about more than problems.
Leave negativity for the rest of them.
Forget about bad blood, just move forward and on.
Walking towards progress shows true strength, might, brawn.
It is essential to build dialog to understand others.
Turn foes to friends, meet your eternal sisters and brothers.
Support differences for we're ultimately all the same.
Encourage change and growth, break all the rules of the game.
Choose to tell the truth, then it only has to be told and overcome one time.
Don't dwell or linger on the negative, spin it positive, make it sublime.
Strive to make things better, people want to believe there exists a cure.
Forever serious is a burden to most, even the strongest struggle to endure.
Be a part of the solution or get the fuck up out the way.
Don't think, talk, or preach unless you live what you say.
Find your strength, remember your worth, if you must, pray.
Discover your way, remember to pay, cause it all leads to a brighter changed day.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Night and Day
November 29, 2010 - 14:44
A walk during the day turns into a brisk run at night.
I often struggle to keep my eyes open throughout daylight.
But in the dead of night, I'm wide awake with both eyes open.
Crowds gather in the light then part and leave.
In darkness brothers band together as thick as thieves.
For daylight shields the mysteries twilight reveals.
All that glitters without light cannot be gold.
Quiet lips made silent after daytime stories told.
Beware the lies created with the bending of light out in the open.
Is it a wonder I feel safer at night in the dark?
Things become self-evident with no reflections, refractions, truths stark.
For light cannot hide the shroud darkness reveals.
*Performed at Nuyorican Poets Cafe on 1/6/2011.
A walk during the day turns into a brisk run at night.
I often struggle to keep my eyes open throughout daylight.
But in the dead of night, I'm wide awake with both eyes open.
Crowds gather in the light then part and leave.
In darkness brothers band together as thick as thieves.
For daylight shields the mysteries twilight reveals.
All that glitters without light cannot be gold.
Quiet lips made silent after daytime stories told.
Beware the lies created with the bending of light out in the open.
Is it a wonder I feel safer at night in the dark?
Things become self-evident with no reflections, refractions, truths stark.
For light cannot hide the shroud darkness reveals.
*Performed at Nuyorican Poets Cafe on 1/6/2011.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Down This Road Before
October 25, 2010 - 10:36
These shoes have known this road
Because I've walked this walk before
These eyes have seen these things
They look different but yet the same
These ears know the sound of these familiar words
The language spoken in all tongues
This heart has skipped and beat this song before
It's been through better and worse but always recognizes the rhythm
It's not that I don't want to fuss and fight
It's that I've walked this road before
I've lived and learned there's nothing I can say or do
Whether you stay or leave is strictly up to you
Don't make it about me when it's all about you
Don't think I don't care when I'm still standing here
The problem is not me or you
The problem is with us
Yet I'm still standing on this ground
And you are nowhere to be found
So I will continue being me
While you decide to do you
You see I've walked this road before
And I know it all too well
These shoes have known this road
Because I've walked this walk before
These eyes have seen these things
They look different but yet the same
These ears know the sound of these familiar words
The language spoken in all tongues
This heart has skipped and beat this song before
It's been through better and worse but always recognizes the rhythm
It's not that I don't want to fuss and fight
It's that I've walked this road before
I've lived and learned there's nothing I can say or do
Whether you stay or leave is strictly up to you
Don't make it about me when it's all about you
Don't think I don't care when I'm still standing here
The problem is not me or you
The problem is with us
Yet I'm still standing on this ground
And you are nowhere to be found
So I will continue being me
While you decide to do you
You see I've walked this road before
And I know it all too well
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
original star
September 14, 2010 - 12:10
in a world of copy cats
in an era of followers
in a time of liars
in a time of thieves
walk your own path
be your own person
do what feels natural
do what feels right
don't follow the crowd
don't follow the mob
don't do without thinking
don't live without feeling
live for a purpose
live for a reason
invest in yourself
change with the season
be what you want
be what you choose
be who you are
be your original star
in a world of copy cats
in an era of followers
in a time of liars
in a time of thieves
walk your own path
be your own person
do what feels natural
do what feels right
don't follow the crowd
don't follow the mob
don't do without thinking
don't live without feeling
live for a purpose
live for a reason
invest in yourself
change with the season
be what you want
be what you choose
be who you are
be your original star
Friday, September 10, 2010
Pursuit of Truth
September 10, 2010 - 14:41
to be lied to is like death
you never see it coming
to turn great into less
to lose more than something
honesty above all else precludes
but in doing so the truth eludes
what is sacred can never be known
what is true cannot be shown
the truth is not told or written
it is not worshiped or smitten
it is embraced without reproach
its boundaries you cannot encroach
you don't choose truth, it chooses you
but you too must choose to be true
for truth's feet are forever fleeting
it provides no comfortable meeting
it is raw and pure and can never be shaped
it is blunt and jagged with cuts that gape
not everyone can bow to its mercy
can you forever handle depth instead of cursory
truth is all around but we don't look
truth doesn't explain, it leaves you shook
to pick up the pieces of reality and grow
learn, change, adapt, know, row and go
but the truth is you can't grasp
the truth that you will relapse
into the pain your lies create
to nourish you and supplicate
no one can be entirely honest
even those who try their earnest
because truth isn't told or sold
control is an illusion you cannot hold
you can never know the truth
so it's best to let it go, but don't forget
the lost innocence of youth
when life was simple without lies or regret
to be lied to is like death
you never see it coming
to turn great into less
to lose more than something
honesty above all else precludes
but in doing so the truth eludes
what is sacred can never be known
what is true cannot be shown
the truth is not told or written
it is not worshiped or smitten
it is embraced without reproach
its boundaries you cannot encroach
you don't choose truth, it chooses you
but you too must choose to be true
for truth's feet are forever fleeting
it provides no comfortable meeting
it is raw and pure and can never be shaped
it is blunt and jagged with cuts that gape
not everyone can bow to its mercy
can you forever handle depth instead of cursory
truth is all around but we don't look
truth doesn't explain, it leaves you shook
to pick up the pieces of reality and grow
learn, change, adapt, know, row and go
but the truth is you can't grasp
the truth that you will relapse
into the pain your lies create
to nourish you and supplicate
no one can be entirely honest
even those who try their earnest
because truth isn't told or sold
control is an illusion you cannot hold
you can never know the truth
so it's best to let it go, but don't forget
the lost innocence of youth
when life was simple without lies or regret
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Elvis The Emo King
September 1, 2010 - 13:42
I walk without purpose
Strolling on this road to nowhere
The sun, the rain, darkness falls
Still I do not care
Living is a distant memory
While tears drown my beer
But my sorrow never lessens
No life, no cares, no fear
The King is truly dead
And so I live solely to die
Pain is my only solace
My suffering makes me feel alive
I walk without purpose
Strolling on this road to nowhere
The sun, the rain, darkness falls
Still I do not care
Living is a distant memory
While tears drown my beer
But my sorrow never lessens
No life, no cares, no fear
The King is truly dead
And so I live solely to die
Pain is my only solace
My suffering makes me feel alive
Monday, June 7, 2010
Walk On By
June 7, 2010 - 19:49
Some walk fast.
Some slow.
Some funny.
Some smooth.
Some with purpose.
Some aimlessly.
Some with long strides.
Some with short steps.
Some in the light.
Some in the dark.
Some do it with class.
Some do it with style.
Some with pain.
Some with difficulty.
Some with a limp.
Some with a cane.
Some barefoot.
Some with socks.
Some wearing different shoes.
Some with help from others.
Some by letting others walk on them.
Some by letting others walk for them.
Some by stopping others from walking.
Some focus on the destination.
Some enjoy the journey.
Some do it on the road less traveled.
Some never walk again.
Slow and steady goes a long way.
But sometimes you break out into a run to pass on by.
Other times you slow to a crawl and take everything in.
Eventually you will grow tired and have to rest.
No one can walk forever.
Everyone has their limits when they just can't go on anymore.
Each person's limits are different.
But at the end of the day, we all walk the same way.
It's just with varying levels of focus and effort needed.
Simply put one foot in front of the other.
Some walk fast.
Some slow.
Some funny.
Some smooth.
Some with purpose.
Some aimlessly.
Some with long strides.
Some with short steps.
Some in the light.
Some in the dark.
Some do it with class.
Some do it with style.
Some with pain.
Some with difficulty.
Some with a limp.
Some with a cane.
Some barefoot.
Some with socks.
Some wearing different shoes.
Some with help from others.
Some by letting others walk on them.
Some by letting others walk for them.
Some by stopping others from walking.
Some focus on the destination.
Some enjoy the journey.
Some do it on the road less traveled.
Some never walk again.
Slow and steady goes a long way.
But sometimes you break out into a run to pass on by.
Other times you slow to a crawl and take everything in.
Eventually you will grow tired and have to rest.
No one can walk forever.
Everyone has their limits when they just can't go on anymore.
Each person's limits are different.
But at the end of the day, we all walk the same way.
It's just with varying levels of focus and effort needed.
Simply put one foot in front of the other.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
The Way Things Are
May 11, 2010 - 12:46
It is what it is.
Of course it is whatever
Accepting, understanding, dismissive
But why is it that way?
Don't accept without question
There is always a choice
Nothing is what it seems
Everyone has a voice
You are who you are.
Naturally we all are
Intuitive, logical, unyielding
But why are you that way?
Be true to yourself
You must choose to be great
Known or unknown self-power
You can change your fate
I don't care.
It's easier to not care
Affirming, strong, numb
Is it better to not care?
But really you care
Else you wouldn't say
Don't lie to yourself
Accept things aren't okay
It's all good.
There's good everywhere
Optimistic, positive, oblivious
Is all of it really that good?
The good with the bad
They must co-exist
Never one without the other
Accept both to persist
Life is what you make
Remember to give what you take
Your life is what you alone decide
So put aside your pride
Step outside yourself to learn
Follow what your heart yearns
Work hard and grow
Understand trumps know
Become who you are deep down
What goes around, comes back around
It is what it is.
Of course it is whatever
Accepting, understanding, dismissive
But why is it that way?
Don't accept without question
There is always a choice
Nothing is what it seems
Everyone has a voice
You are who you are.
Naturally we all are
Intuitive, logical, unyielding
But why are you that way?
Be true to yourself
You must choose to be great
Known or unknown self-power
You can change your fate
I don't care.
It's easier to not care
Affirming, strong, numb
Is it better to not care?
But really you care
Else you wouldn't say
Don't lie to yourself
Accept things aren't okay
It's all good.
There's good everywhere
Optimistic, positive, oblivious
Is all of it really that good?
The good with the bad
They must co-exist
Never one without the other
Accept both to persist
Life is what you make
Remember to give what you take
Your life is what you alone decide
So put aside your pride
Step outside yourself to learn
Follow what your heart yearns
Work hard and grow
Understand trumps know
Become who you are deep down
What goes around, comes back around
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Laying Awake
April 29, 2010 - 02:52)
Lost track of hours
It's quite late
Well past bedtime
Sleep can't wait
Eyes draw heavy
Drowsy sets in
Crawl into bed
Let sleeping begin
Lay in the dark
Thoughts dance around
Mind won't quiet
Hear every sound
Blankets too warm
Rest doesn't come
Closed eyes into nothing
Feel the heart drum
Wish to fall
Hope to sleep
Make it happen
Nice and deep
But still nothing
Heart quickens beats
Head races on
Now sweaty sheets
Frustration sets in
Need some air
Check the clock
But why care
It's not happening
This is reality
Thinking of life
Ponder our mortality
Impenetrable mental block
Delayed spiritual quest
Emotional roller coaster
Quite physically stressed
Is the pain profound?
Is the heart blue?
Is the mind engaged?
Is everything true?
Who is it?
Where are they?
What are they doing?
Why not there today?
Look deep within
Answer is known
Trust and believe
You're not alone
Lost track of hours
It's quite late
Well past bedtime
Sleep can't wait
Eyes draw heavy
Drowsy sets in
Crawl into bed
Let sleeping begin
Lay in the dark
Thoughts dance around
Mind won't quiet
Hear every sound
Blankets too warm
Rest doesn't come
Closed eyes into nothing
Feel the heart drum
Wish to fall
Hope to sleep
Make it happen
Nice and deep
But still nothing
Heart quickens beats
Head races on
Now sweaty sheets
Frustration sets in
Need some air
Check the clock
But why care
It's not happening
This is reality
Thinking of life
Ponder our mortality
Impenetrable mental block
Delayed spiritual quest
Emotional roller coaster
Quite physically stressed
Is the pain profound?
Is the heart blue?
Is the mind engaged?
Is everything true?
Who is it?
Where are they?
What are they doing?
Why not there today?
Look deep within
Answer is known
Trust and believe
You're not alone
Monday, April 26, 2010
Me & You: Explicitly Raw
April 26, 2010 - 16:30
With you I'm going to make a bet
At the end it will be moist and wet
I'm not telling you how I can screw
I'm just revealing what I will do
Turn the ringer off no phone calls
Let me feel those sugarwalls
Clear the schedule we need all day
All morning, noon, night I just may
I'll start nice and slow if you want
Undress slowly and let yourself flaunt
I'll step back so I can clearly observe
Beautiful body lines and womanly curves
Bring that bubble and let me prick
Touch lick swallow now suck that di...
Oops I got too far ahead of myself
Let's not rush this will handle itself
Lay on down so I can massage your body
Put on some nice music no more Lodi Dodi
Your soft silky smooth skin under my hands
I'm getting ideas let's start making plans
I want all of me inside all of you just to see
I want to show you what you mean to me
I want you to ride til you forget when you came
I want you to cum and scream out my name
There are no limits and no one else but just us
We should give ourselves fully together in trust
Choose to understand and accept each other
We can be all we need no more one after another
But before we begin spread and show me your hole
I want to see it taste it and feel you bare your soul
Let go and lose yourself in the moment we share
It's not just about me I will prove that I care
Let's make our time together last forever
We can accomplish all that we endeavor
So when we must leave each other to part
We'll know we gave it all including our hearts
But forget tomorrow join me now in this day
If it's meant to last then it will find a way
Girl you do it for me you're definitely a ten
So roll on back over and we can do it again
With you I'm going to make a bet
At the end it will be moist and wet
I'm not telling you how I can screw
I'm just revealing what I will do
Turn the ringer off no phone calls
Let me feel those sugarwalls
Clear the schedule we need all day
All morning, noon, night I just may
I'll start nice and slow if you want
Undress slowly and let yourself flaunt
I'll step back so I can clearly observe
Beautiful body lines and womanly curves
Bring that bubble and let me prick
Touch lick swallow now suck that di...
Oops I got too far ahead of myself
Let's not rush this will handle itself
Lay on down so I can massage your body
Put on some nice music no more Lodi Dodi
Your soft silky smooth skin under my hands
I'm getting ideas let's start making plans
I want all of me inside all of you just to see
I want to show you what you mean to me
I want you to ride til you forget when you came
I want you to cum and scream out my name
There are no limits and no one else but just us
We should give ourselves fully together in trust
Choose to understand and accept each other
We can be all we need no more one after another
But before we begin spread and show me your hole
I want to see it taste it and feel you bare your soul
Let go and lose yourself in the moment we share
It's not just about me I will prove that I care
Let's make our time together last forever
We can accomplish all that we endeavor
So when we must leave each other to part
We'll know we gave it all including our hearts
But forget tomorrow join me now in this day
If it's meant to last then it will find a way
Girl you do it for me you're definitely a ten
So roll on back over and we can do it again
Irresistible
April 26, 2010 - 12:23
You think you can stay away
You want to keep yourself at bay
You don't want to get involved
You're busy trying to evolve
You prefer your time alone
You don't want to wear cologne
You like your simple life
You don't really need a wife
But there's something about her
She possesses quite the allure
Her eyes reveal an intensity
Underlying depth and density
She's educated and intelligent
Her words mean something relevant
She has personality to spare
She even knows what to wear
She can talk all night and day
Wanting to make love in every way
Her elegance and grace define style
She is willing to walk the extra mile
But she demands honesty and respect
A small price for support without neglect
She cares about more than herself
She's not impressed by cars or wealth
She's independent and doesn't need you
Which means you're one of very few
To be let in and know who she is
No run around and it's not just fizz
And she's not above an apology
So rare maybe it's destined astrology
She's patient, listens, and understands
Good spontaneous or sticking to the plan
And so she has the right mind
Besides a sexy little behind
A beauty unique and all her own
Ready for you to make her moan
So she just pulls you right in
She decides when to begin
Her smile makes you laugh
Together you two can craft
Maybe something special you can build
To complement each other and feel filled
Or maybe it's just a moment to pass
On the road of life a needed stop for gas
Great things don't always last forever
But the best leave marks you remember
To help you make your days and nights better
With lessons learned that make you clever
Either way you cannot say no
You'll try just to discover and know
Besides it's too late to walk away now
But it doesn't mean you'll exchange vows
Take each moment as it comes and goes
Times will be high and there will be lows
Inevitably you can do nothing to resist
Life it seems has taken a real twist
You think you can stay away
You want to keep yourself at bay
You don't want to get involved
You're busy trying to evolve
You prefer your time alone
You don't want to wear cologne
You like your simple life
You don't really need a wife
But there's something about her
She possesses quite the allure
Her eyes reveal an intensity
Underlying depth and density
She's educated and intelligent
Her words mean something relevant
She has personality to spare
She even knows what to wear
She can talk all night and day
Wanting to make love in every way
Her elegance and grace define style
She is willing to walk the extra mile
But she demands honesty and respect
A small price for support without neglect
She cares about more than herself
She's not impressed by cars or wealth
She's independent and doesn't need you
Which means you're one of very few
To be let in and know who she is
No run around and it's not just fizz
And she's not above an apology
So rare maybe it's destined astrology
She's patient, listens, and understands
Good spontaneous or sticking to the plan
And so she has the right mind
Besides a sexy little behind
A beauty unique and all her own
Ready for you to make her moan
So she just pulls you right in
She decides when to begin
Her smile makes you laugh
Together you two can craft
Maybe something special you can build
To complement each other and feel filled
Or maybe it's just a moment to pass
On the road of life a needed stop for gas
Great things don't always last forever
But the best leave marks you remember
To help you make your days and nights better
With lessons learned that make you clever
Either way you cannot say no
You'll try just to discover and know
Besides it's too late to walk away now
But it doesn't mean you'll exchange vows
Take each moment as it comes and goes
Times will be high and there will be lows
Inevitably you can do nothing to resist
Life it seems has taken a real twist
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Love of the Dark, Fear of the Night
April 24, 2010 - 01:05
No matter it always comes
Its presence like a drum
You see it in the distance
It is forever persistence
Abstraction personified
Depth of divinity vilified
It is absolute in truth
Present since our youth
It is the great unknown
It can even hide the throne
Nothing can escape it
It can dull every wit
Its existence not to give
It takes and doesn't forgive
In it anything can hide
Few can hope to guide
It has no true name
It doesn't play games
You can never hold or touch
Yet you can see how much
It falls like a wall
And lifts to reveal all
It moves like a wave
Grand as no certain cave
It surrounds my life
Penetrated by no knife
It resides inside me
Consuming my every be
It is the dark
It is my fear
It steals my bark
It makes me disappear
Nothing stops the night
Nothing brings the day
Nightmares full of fright
Thoughts real in every way
Now I pray before I sleep
Give me strength to last
In misery my heart weeps
But thankfully it shall pass
No matter it always comes
Its presence like a drum
You see it in the distance
It is forever persistence
Abstraction personified
Depth of divinity vilified
It is absolute in truth
Present since our youth
It is the great unknown
It can even hide the throne
Nothing can escape it
It can dull every wit
Its existence not to give
It takes and doesn't forgive
In it anything can hide
Few can hope to guide
It has no true name
It doesn't play games
You can never hold or touch
Yet you can see how much
It falls like a wall
And lifts to reveal all
It moves like a wave
Grand as no certain cave
It surrounds my life
Penetrated by no knife
It resides inside me
Consuming my every be
It is the dark
It is my fear
It steals my bark
It makes me disappear
Nothing stops the night
Nothing brings the day
Nightmares full of fright
Thoughts real in every way
Now I pray before I sleep
Give me strength to last
In misery my heart weeps
But thankfully it shall pass
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Source of Confidence
April 21, 2010 - 11:27
Does it come from your looks?
Is it your flawlessly built body?
Is it how well you hit the books?
Or that you're good and rarely naughty?
Is it all about what you did?
Might it be your potential and what you could do?
How well you keep your true self hid?
Maybe you're not not like most and one of the few?
Your never ending supply of ambition?
Your innate ability to adapt?
That you never give in to rendition?
Or the fact that you haven't relapsed?
Maybe it's your unique and impressive style?
Is it how much love you can give?
Your willingness to go the extra mile?
Being able to rise above and live?
Your fame before it does recess?
Do you care how much money you make?
Or your employment success?
Leaving accomplished goals in your wake?
Is it because you always help others?
Are your family ties strong?
Is everyone your sister and brother?
True friends to understand your wrong?
Do you always smell like cologne?
Your children are your world, your light?
You do well being all alone?
Material possessions show your might?
Did you buy some expensive vessels?
Did you build an appreciation of art?
Can you always make do from will?
Or are you forever young at heart?
With yourself do you always wrestle?
Is the source of your confidence real?
What makes you feel really special?
Or is it a fix until your next happy meal?
Does it come from your looks?
Is it your flawlessly built body?
Is it how well you hit the books?
Or that you're good and rarely naughty?
Is it all about what you did?
Might it be your potential and what you could do?
How well you keep your true self hid?
Maybe you're not not like most and one of the few?
Your never ending supply of ambition?
Your innate ability to adapt?
That you never give in to rendition?
Or the fact that you haven't relapsed?
Maybe it's your unique and impressive style?
Is it how much love you can give?
Your willingness to go the extra mile?
Being able to rise above and live?
Your fame before it does recess?
Do you care how much money you make?
Or your employment success?
Leaving accomplished goals in your wake?
Is it because you always help others?
Are your family ties strong?
Is everyone your sister and brother?
True friends to understand your wrong?
Do you always smell like cologne?
Your children are your world, your light?
You do well being all alone?
Material possessions show your might?
Did you buy some expensive vessels?
Did you build an appreciation of art?
Can you always make do from will?
Or are you forever young at heart?
With yourself do you always wrestle?
Is the source of your confidence real?
What makes you feel really special?
Or is it a fix until your next happy meal?
Monday, April 12, 2010
Enter Doubt
April 12, 2010 - 14:50
When you know
You just know
You believe you can
You are the man
You can do anything
You're like a king
You're someone great
People shouldn't hate
But then the moment comes
Like a quietly carrying hum
It gets louder and louder
You refuse to be a doubter
But what if you don't know
What if you're unable to go
You might be more than wrong
You don't even really belong
Your confidence chips and cracks
Everything you are and do lacks
You can't even hold your own
It makes you feel alone
Did you make the right decision
Were you wrong in your vision
How could you be so blind
If only you could rewind
Ultimately all you've done is fail
Your last check is in the mail
You built yourself up to fall
Now you're open with no walls
What if you're so far off the mark
You clung to false light in perfect dark
You're lost without a direction
All in the pursuit of perfection
In this moment you feel lost
The bill is due so pay the cost
What if you owe more than you have
Can you plug it in your nav
But it's not as bad as you think
Just swallow your pride and blink
Stay true to who you choose to be
Overcoming failures is the key
Are you better than the rest
Even if you're not the best
Do you have what it takes to last
Can you really make it past
Fear is the mind killer
Remember you're more than filler
Doubt is fear's ugly sister
Sent to spin your mind like a twister
Like all burdens it will pass
Just bear witness and fill the gas
It's a necessary moment, only brief
Let it all go with a sigh of relief
When you know
You just know
You believe you can
You are the man
You can do anything
You're like a king
You're someone great
People shouldn't hate
But then the moment comes
Like a quietly carrying hum
It gets louder and louder
You refuse to be a doubter
But what if you don't know
What if you're unable to go
You might be more than wrong
You don't even really belong
Your confidence chips and cracks
Everything you are and do lacks
You can't even hold your own
It makes you feel alone
Did you make the right decision
Were you wrong in your vision
How could you be so blind
If only you could rewind
Ultimately all you've done is fail
Your last check is in the mail
You built yourself up to fall
Now you're open with no walls
What if you're so far off the mark
You clung to false light in perfect dark
You're lost without a direction
All in the pursuit of perfection
In this moment you feel lost
The bill is due so pay the cost
What if you owe more than you have
Can you plug it in your nav
But it's not as bad as you think
Just swallow your pride and blink
Stay true to who you choose to be
Overcoming failures is the key
Are you better than the rest
Even if you're not the best
Do you have what it takes to last
Can you really make it past
Fear is the mind killer
Remember you're more than filler
Doubt is fear's ugly sister
Sent to spin your mind like a twister
Like all burdens it will pass
Just bear witness and fill the gas
It's a necessary moment, only brief
Let it all go with a sigh of relief
Friday, April 9, 2010
Addiction
April 9, 2010 - 15:47
You know it's bad
But you still want more
Always feeling sad, mad
All down in your core
Reason every way
Justify every action
Anything you can say
Just to get satisfaction
But it never comes
You never feel good
Only feeling numb
You wish you could
You want it to end
You can't take anymore
But it won't bend
Never exiting that door
Close all the windows
Lock all the locks
Only God really knows
How your life is blocked
You keep a dirty secret
No one really knows
There is no safety net
Here come the crows
You want more
You need more
You'll never have more
You can't be without more
It is your everything
You know it's nothing
You'll do anything
Just to feel that thing
It is a confliction
It is an affliction
You need conviction
I have an addiction
*Performed at Nuyorican Poets Cafe on 1/6/2011.
You know it's bad
But you still want more
Always feeling sad, mad
All down in your core
Reason every way
Justify every action
Anything you can say
Just to get satisfaction
But it never comes
You never feel good
Only feeling numb
You wish you could
You want it to end
You can't take anymore
But it won't bend
Never exiting that door
Close all the windows
Lock all the locks
Only God really knows
How your life is blocked
You keep a dirty secret
No one really knows
There is no safety net
Here come the crows
You want more
You need more
You'll never have more
You can't be without more
It is your everything
You know it's nothing
You'll do anything
Just to feel that thing
It is a confliction
It is an affliction
You need conviction
I have an addiction
*Performed at Nuyorican Poets Cafe on 1/6/2011.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Right Mind
March 29, 2010 - 19:07
Forget the rest
Diddy said it best
"I have met a lot of women in my lifetime
But see it's not a lot of women that got the right mind"
See I don't need a lot of women in my life
I'd be perfectly content with just one wife
I don't need different chicks to do one thing
I'd rather one great woman and give her a ring
But I don't take the decision lightly
She has to prove herself mighty
That simply doesn't happen overnight
No matter if her game is tight and right
I need it all, I want it all
I have to love, I have to fall
Otherwise it's all pointless
Pretty always fades into her mess
The person she is matters more than looks
Is she intelligent and educated herself with books
Can she talk about fears, hopes, and dreams
Is there much more to her life than it seems
Does she have goals and ambition of her own
Did she mature, cope, and make herself grown
See it's not about words and what she volunteers
It's all about thought and action, not what she appears
A real woman with class
Not a superficial one with ass
But a pretty face always gets a man stupid
A nice body and you think it must be cupid
Love is not caring about the person you see
It's being unable to imagine life without your we
Not everyone even knows what real love is
They're all about themselves and handling their biz
Selfishness, ignorance, pride, lust reign supreme
Never seeing beauty in cultivating your dreams
Worth based on shallow premises and facts
Not understanding yourself and how you lack
The right mind lies within, beauty runs deep
It's not outward, physical, sexual, or from sleep
I say cultivate your mind, along with the rest of yourself
Care after everything not just parts of your health
But it boils down real simple to find the right one
She tells you right away if you've really won
Simply ask her if she feels she has the right mind
If you see no doubt in her answer, she's not a find
You can watch her words and see her behavior
She'll undo herself no one can save her
There goes another one who paid the cost
She doesn't have the right mind, just another one lost
Forget the rest
Diddy said it best
"I have met a lot of women in my lifetime
But see it's not a lot of women that got the right mind"
See I don't need a lot of women in my life
I'd be perfectly content with just one wife
I don't need different chicks to do one thing
I'd rather one great woman and give her a ring
But I don't take the decision lightly
She has to prove herself mighty
That simply doesn't happen overnight
No matter if her game is tight and right
I need it all, I want it all
I have to love, I have to fall
Otherwise it's all pointless
Pretty always fades into her mess
The person she is matters more than looks
Is she intelligent and educated herself with books
Can she talk about fears, hopes, and dreams
Is there much more to her life than it seems
Does she have goals and ambition of her own
Did she mature, cope, and make herself grown
See it's not about words and what she volunteers
It's all about thought and action, not what she appears
A real woman with class
Not a superficial one with ass
But a pretty face always gets a man stupid
A nice body and you think it must be cupid
Love is not caring about the person you see
It's being unable to imagine life without your we
Not everyone even knows what real love is
They're all about themselves and handling their biz
Selfishness, ignorance, pride, lust reign supreme
Never seeing beauty in cultivating your dreams
Worth based on shallow premises and facts
Not understanding yourself and how you lack
The right mind lies within, beauty runs deep
It's not outward, physical, sexual, or from sleep
I say cultivate your mind, along with the rest of yourself
Care after everything not just parts of your health
But it boils down real simple to find the right one
She tells you right away if you've really won
Simply ask her if she feels she has the right mind
If you see no doubt in her answer, she's not a find
You can watch her words and see her behavior
She'll undo herself no one can save her
There goes another one who paid the cost
She doesn't have the right mind, just another one lost
Monday, March 22, 2010
Lifetime Of Ignorance
March 9, 2010 - 11:28
Life is not about cheddar and cheese
Many more ways than money to please
Greed is why the world is harsh
Why work makes us bust our arse
If money is your sole pursuit
You'll never hear life's gentle flute
Money is nothing but a construct
Its desire making us self-destruct
The best things in life aren't free
But somethings are, go climb a tree
Make a true friend, and you will know
It's time and effort that make the best go
There's much more to life than looks
Beauty, physique, it gets took
Then you're left chalk full of holes
Never cultivating your soul
In the mirror spending hours of each day
Look deep into your eyes to see the way
It's not about appearance and perfection
Accept yourself and forget the attention
Clothes, hair, muscles don't matter
That or happiness, most prefer the latter
Natural beauty radiates from within
It shines in smiles, eyes, that's a win
You only value what someone can do
Can they treat you well and true
The problem: it's not about you
A shame in life you missed that clue
Not all attention that comes is good
You have to discern will from could
Compromise, understanding are rare
Beyond themselves, most do not care
If you want love, you have to give
You can't take and expect to live
Selfish is your sin, your crime
Vanity your vice, you're no dime
Educate yourself and grow
Cultivate your mind and sew
Expand perspective beyond your own
The great beyond, so much unknown
Open up your mind and learn
Understand how your heart yearns
School and books show the path
But it's up to you to make it last
A lifetime is needed, no work complete
Sometimes you lose, don't let it deplete
Create yourself as you want to be
So much great to life, you will see
Life is not about cheddar and cheese
Many more ways than money to please
Greed is why the world is harsh
Why work makes us bust our arse
If money is your sole pursuit
You'll never hear life's gentle flute
Money is nothing but a construct
Its desire making us self-destruct
The best things in life aren't free
But somethings are, go climb a tree
Make a true friend, and you will know
It's time and effort that make the best go
There's much more to life than looks
Beauty, physique, it gets took
Then you're left chalk full of holes
Never cultivating your soul
In the mirror spending hours of each day
Look deep into your eyes to see the way
It's not about appearance and perfection
Accept yourself and forget the attention
Clothes, hair, muscles don't matter
That or happiness, most prefer the latter
Natural beauty radiates from within
It shines in smiles, eyes, that's a win
You only value what someone can do
Can they treat you well and true
The problem: it's not about you
A shame in life you missed that clue
Not all attention that comes is good
You have to discern will from could
Compromise, understanding are rare
Beyond themselves, most do not care
If you want love, you have to give
You can't take and expect to live
Selfish is your sin, your crime
Vanity your vice, you're no dime
Educate yourself and grow
Cultivate your mind and sew
Expand perspective beyond your own
The great beyond, so much unknown
Open up your mind and learn
Understand how your heart yearns
School and books show the path
But it's up to you to make it last
A lifetime is needed, no work complete
Sometimes you lose, don't let it deplete
Create yourself as you want to be
So much great to life, you will see
Friday, March 19, 2010
King Of Shit
March 10, 2010 - 09:52
King Of Shit
Yes shit
Our shit
Ugh shit
A lot of shit
Remember shit
Eat shit
See shit
Own shit
Forget shit
Unknown shit
Lie about shit
Leverage shit
Oh shit
Feel shit
Sell shit
Hear shit
Interesting shit
Touch shit
Take a shit
Hollow shit
Appreciate shit
Taste like shit
Yikes shit
Organize shit
Unlikely shit
Read shit
Ewww shit
Young shit
Every shit
Sick shit
Ahhhh shit
Real shit
Early shit
Buy shit
Realize shit
Original shit
Wow shit
Need shit
Clean up shit
Only shit
Make shit
Even shit
Open shit
No shit
My shit
Your shit
Dirty shit
Under shit
New shit
Green shit
Do shit
Overflowing shit
Neverending shit
Tame shit
Growing shit
Overcast shit
Create shit
Ok shit
Pay for shit
Yank shit
Inside shit
Nookie shit
Get shit
Miss shit
Yearn for shit
Steal shit
Help shit
Irksome shit
Trust shit
Swallow shit
Waste shit
Allow shit
Like shit
Love shit
Outside shit
Write shit
Mellow shit
Yellow shit
Pound shit
Ill shit
Ecstatic shit
Cop that shit
Euphoric shit
Suck that shit
Over shit
Fuck shit
Bull shit
Undying shit
Looking for shit
Lost shit
Same old shit
Happy shit
Insane shit
Teasing shit
Say shit
Illogical shit
Nature shit
Confess shit
Exact shit
Rubber shit
Empty shit
Lick shit
You are so full of shit that your eyes are brown. Come on my dung, don't go copying my shit. Swallow my piece of bull shit. Sincerely,
~Roi de Merde
King Of Shit
Yes shit
Our shit
Ugh shit
A lot of shit
Remember shit
Eat shit
See shit
Own shit
Forget shit
Unknown shit
Lie about shit
Leverage shit
Oh shit
Feel shit
Sell shit
Hear shit
Interesting shit
Touch shit
Take a shit
Hollow shit
Appreciate shit
Taste like shit
Yikes shit
Organize shit
Unlikely shit
Read shit
Ewww shit
Young shit
Every shit
Sick shit
Ahhhh shit
Real shit
Early shit
Buy shit
Realize shit
Original shit
Wow shit
Need shit
Clean up shit
Only shit
Make shit
Even shit
Open shit
No shit
My shit
Your shit
Dirty shit
Under shit
New shit
Green shit
Do shit
Overflowing shit
Neverending shit
Tame shit
Growing shit
Overcast shit
Create shit
Ok shit
Pay for shit
Yank shit
Inside shit
Nookie shit
Get shit
Miss shit
Yearn for shit
Steal shit
Help shit
Irksome shit
Trust shit
Swallow shit
Waste shit
Allow shit
Like shit
Love shit
Outside shit
Write shit
Mellow shit
Yellow shit
Pound shit
Ill shit
Ecstatic shit
Cop that shit
Euphoric shit
Suck that shit
Over shit
Fuck shit
Bull shit
Undying shit
Looking for shit
Lost shit
Same old shit
Happy shit
Insane shit
Teasing shit
Say shit
Illogical shit
Nature shit
Confess shit
Exact shit
Rubber shit
Empty shit
Lick shit
You are so full of shit that your eyes are brown. Come on my dung, don't go copying my shit. Swallow my piece of bull shit. Sincerely,
~Roi de Merde
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Deep As Depth
March 16, 2010 - 13:24
Deep As Depth
I can't do shit that lacks depth:
I like my tea straight
I like my liquor neat
I like my meat still bleeding
I like the harsh realities of life
I like the bluntness of truth
I like the liberation of honesty
I don't want sugar or sweet
I don't beat around the bush
I don't lie, cheat, steal, or play games
I want it to rain down, cause after there's a rainbow
I want it raw, unfiltered, unadulterated, as it really is
I want it all, not a little bit, not some, not half, not most, all
Deep As Depth
I can't do shit that lacks depth:
I like my tea straight
I like my liquor neat
I like my meat still bleeding
I like the harsh realities of life
I like the bluntness of truth
I like the liberation of honesty
I don't want sugar or sweet
I don't beat around the bush
I don't lie, cheat, steal, or play games
I want it to rain down, cause after there's a rainbow
I want it raw, unfiltered, unadulterated, as it really is
I want it all, not a little bit, not some, not half, not most, all
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Ass
March 17, 2010 - 18:17
Ass
I don't want a woman with class,
I want one with a whole lot of ass.
You can get ass,
but that doesn't mean you'll pass
your class.
So you'll end up nowhere fast,
just mast-
-urbating your way along with crass,
and sass,
so nothing of substance will ever last.
No gas?
You're doomed to repeat the past.
But at least you got some ass.
Ass
I don't want a woman with class,
I want one with a whole lot of ass.
You can get ass,
but that doesn't mean you'll pass
your class.
So you'll end up nowhere fast,
just mast-
-urbating your way along with crass,
and sass,
so nothing of substance will ever last.
No gas?
You're doomed to repeat the past.
But at least you got some ass.
When I See You Again
March 10, 2010 - 13:48
When I See You Again
I still remember your smile
I can still see your eyes
I'll travel however many miles
I hope our time apart flies
I remember that way you look
The feel of your warmth embrace
I'll even let your pawn take my rook
To see that smile upon your face
I yearn to hear you laugh
I anticipate the moment we meet
I calculated days and did the math
Just tell me where you want to eat
The days countdown one by one
My anticipation grows
It's like a race I've all but won
My body simply knows
Until at last the day arrives
That I will see you in front of me
In your presence we'll strengthen ties
Happy together I shall be
Let's create our own fashion
Make my heart no longer miss
So I can feel my passion
And seal it with a kiss
When I See You Again
I still remember your smile
I can still see your eyes
I'll travel however many miles
I hope our time apart flies
I remember that way you look
The feel of your warmth embrace
I'll even let your pawn take my rook
To see that smile upon your face
I yearn to hear you laugh
I anticipate the moment we meet
I calculated days and did the math
Just tell me where you want to eat
The days countdown one by one
My anticipation grows
It's like a race I've all but won
My body simply knows
Until at last the day arrives
That I will see you in front of me
In your presence we'll strengthen ties
Happy together I shall be
Let's create our own fashion
Make my heart no longer miss
So I can feel my passion
And seal it with a kiss
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Her Last
January 14, 2010 - 02:22
Her Last
You remember her smell
Her touch made you dwell
The feel of her soft embrace
You would have run every race
You thought you knew it all
She said you have such gall
You waited night and day for her call
Thinking I refuse to be the one to fall
Now you miss her like a drug
You should be feeling so smug
You did this to yourself you see
You couldn't just let things be
You drove her away from you
All along you wish you knew
You thought she was the one
That feeling swarmed that you had won
But you failed like those before
So she showed you the big door
Now you miss what you once had
And it can make you mighty sad
You realize now but it's too late
Oh if only to go back to your first date
To tell yourself how to make it work
So now you wouldn't be the jerk
Every man wants to be her first
To do it all and quench her thirst
But they all live now in her past
The best in life ends up her last
Her Last
You remember her smell
Her touch made you dwell
The feel of her soft embrace
You would have run every race
You thought you knew it all
She said you have such gall
You waited night and day for her call
Thinking I refuse to be the one to fall
Now you miss her like a drug
You should be feeling so smug
You did this to yourself you see
You couldn't just let things be
You drove her away from you
All along you wish you knew
You thought she was the one
That feeling swarmed that you had won
But you failed like those before
So she showed you the big door
Now you miss what you once had
And it can make you mighty sad
You realize now but it's too late
Oh if only to go back to your first date
To tell yourself how to make it work
So now you wouldn't be the jerk
Every man wants to be her first
To do it all and quench her thirst
But they all live now in her past
The best in life ends up her last
Monday, March 15, 2010
Real
January 14, 2010 - 10:44
Real
A real woman puts you in your place
Yet knows when to give you some space
She tears you down like a bad rhyme
Building you up to stand the test of time
Every man wants a great woman
We hear about them in each sermon
But can we see one in our eyes
Or do we rush to say goodbyes
A woman knows her role in life
To accept nothing less than as his wife
She needs a man to calm her soul
To feed her sick, straight from the bowl
A strong man needs to be her rock
But soft enough to wear her smock
A real man does all this and more
He keeps her interest, never the bore
But what is real do we know
If we find it can we show
Who we really are deep inside
Put it all aside to enjoy the ride
None of us are strong, all weak
Flaws and mistakes the moment we speak
The pain and suffering, enough to weep
Then quietly leave each other, nay a peep
But then a real woman meets a man
Because not even God has a plan
We decide our own fates, free will
We just all have to pay the bill
You see the woman and man never left
They worked things out by being deft
They stood together, conquering all to rise above
Forgiveness, trust, compromise, communication, and love
Real is what we define
As we start to refine
The essence of ourselves into one
So we can ride, into the setting sun
Real
A real woman puts you in your place
Yet knows when to give you some space
She tears you down like a bad rhyme
Building you up to stand the test of time
Every man wants a great woman
We hear about them in each sermon
But can we see one in our eyes
Or do we rush to say goodbyes
A woman knows her role in life
To accept nothing less than as his wife
She needs a man to calm her soul
To feed her sick, straight from the bowl
A strong man needs to be her rock
But soft enough to wear her smock
A real man does all this and more
He keeps her interest, never the bore
But what is real do we know
If we find it can we show
Who we really are deep inside
Put it all aside to enjoy the ride
None of us are strong, all weak
Flaws and mistakes the moment we speak
The pain and suffering, enough to weep
Then quietly leave each other, nay a peep
But then a real woman meets a man
Because not even God has a plan
We decide our own fates, free will
We just all have to pay the bill
You see the woman and man never left
They worked things out by being deft
They stood together, conquering all to rise above
Forgiveness, trust, compromise, communication, and love
Real is what we define
As we start to refine
The essence of ourselves into one
So we can ride, into the setting sun
Sunday, March 14, 2010
About My Love
March 5, 2010 - 08:31
About My Love
I know what I want
I know who I am
No matter the cost
I do what I can
No matter how jaded
I put myself aside
Neither of us boss
In you I will confide
I put in the work
I don't give up easy
I'll go to all lengths
I try hard to please thee
The sky isn't a limit
I'm capable of so much
I'm no fake
I know how to touch
I don't lie
I don't cheat
I can love til I die
I'm one of the best you'll meet
You can meet all my friends
We can go to all places
I'm committed to the end
My love will leave traces
I know I'm not perfect
I make mistakes
I admit when I'm wrong
I'll do what it takes
I want all you can give
I'll give all that I have
Together we're better
Our love won't need a nav
I demand you be honest
I ask that you be true
Just put in your full effort
Give me more than clues
If you can understand my worst
I'll give you my best
Put your trust in me
Let's both forget the rest
This I can promise
This is some of what I do
But this is only part of me
Now tell me about you
About My Love
I know what I want
I know who I am
No matter the cost
I do what I can
No matter how jaded
I put myself aside
Neither of us boss
In you I will confide
I put in the work
I don't give up easy
I'll go to all lengths
I try hard to please thee
The sky isn't a limit
I'm capable of so much
I'm no fake
I know how to touch
I don't lie
I don't cheat
I can love til I die
I'm one of the best you'll meet
You can meet all my friends
We can go to all places
I'm committed to the end
My love will leave traces
I know I'm not perfect
I make mistakes
I admit when I'm wrong
I'll do what it takes
I want all you can give
I'll give all that I have
Together we're better
Our love won't need a nav
I demand you be honest
I ask that you be true
Just put in your full effort
Give me more than clues
If you can understand my worst
I'll give you my best
Put your trust in me
Let's both forget the rest
This I can promise
This is some of what I do
But this is only part of me
Now tell me about you
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Does He
March 9, 2010 - 10:28
Does He
Does he look at you the way I did
How does he kiss those pretty lips
Do you talk of raising his kid
Does he appreciate the curve of your hips
Can he massage you the way I could
Is his touch as sensual as mine
Is he willing to go as far as I would
Does he have taste picking out the wine
Will he make you feel better than me
Can he soothe your fears beyond doubt
Does he know the lock and have the key
Do you allow him to have such clout
Is he truly better in all ways
Can he do all that I could do
Is he the one to end all days
Can he stop you feeling blue
Does he love you more than me
Does he look at you and you know
Is everything he gives you free
Can he make you feel high, never low
Is he everything you want anew
Does he help you see and be
I don't think he is the one for you
Simply because he is not me
Does He
Does he look at you the way I did
How does he kiss those pretty lips
Do you talk of raising his kid
Does he appreciate the curve of your hips
Can he massage you the way I could
Is his touch as sensual as mine
Is he willing to go as far as I would
Does he have taste picking out the wine
Will he make you feel better than me
Can he soothe your fears beyond doubt
Does he know the lock and have the key
Do you allow him to have such clout
Is he truly better in all ways
Can he do all that I could do
Is he the one to end all days
Can he stop you feeling blue
Does he love you more than me
Does he look at you and you know
Is everything he gives you free
Can he make you feel high, never low
Is he everything you want anew
Does he help you see and be
I don't think he is the one for you
Simply because he is not me
Someone New
March 6, 2010 - 10:39
Someone New
I hear you have someone new
That's it, we're really through
No more me and you
Nothing more will I do
No more talking until the sun comes up
Goodbye to sharing plate and cup
No more waking up naked together
Our love could have lasted forever
Never again will we make love all night
No more closeness after a big fight
I cannot walk and hold your hand
No takings trips to a far off land
Never more will you understand
You can no longer see my whole plan
I simply cannot trust you again
All these words I cannot send
No more candy, cards, or roses
No sneaking in before it closes
No more long sensual embraces
Never see you in a crowd of faces
No more wanting for your kisses
No longer telling how the heart misses
No day dreaming of seeing you later
No more dancing til the DJ pushes the fader
Never again will I feel us close
No more time with you the most
No more rushing to see you first
You can no longer quench my thirst
No more yearning for your taste
All these feelings turned to waste
Now I must forget your smell
I guess it's all just as well
This is what you want
This is what you chose
Does it even make you feel?
Do you even think of me?
Someone New
I hear you have someone new
That's it, we're really through
No more me and you
Nothing more will I do
No more talking until the sun comes up
Goodbye to sharing plate and cup
No more waking up naked together
Our love could have lasted forever
Never again will we make love all night
No more closeness after a big fight
I cannot walk and hold your hand
No takings trips to a far off land
Never more will you understand
You can no longer see my whole plan
I simply cannot trust you again
All these words I cannot send
No more candy, cards, or roses
No sneaking in before it closes
No more long sensual embraces
Never see you in a crowd of faces
No more wanting for your kisses
No longer telling how the heart misses
No day dreaming of seeing you later
No more dancing til the DJ pushes the fader
Never again will I feel us close
No more time with you the most
No more rushing to see you first
You can no longer quench my thirst
No more yearning for your taste
All these feelings turned to waste
Now I must forget your smell
I guess it's all just as well
This is what you want
This is what you chose
Does it even make you feel?
Do you even think of me?
Friday, March 12, 2010
No More Apologies, No More Sorry
March 5, 2010 - 09:33
No More Apologies, No More Sorry
I can apologize for being me
I can say I'm sorry for what I do
It can be my fault for no more we
I can accept blame even if it's not true
Because let's face it, I'm stronger than you
I apologize because I love
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I regret making war over doves
That I treat you with neglect
Deep down I have the utmost respect
But I tire of apologizing for me
I'm only sorry when building us
If there exists no more we
Then I'd rather you go under the bus
What's it matter, if not I, you must
Then I apologize being so selfish
I'm sorry for being so bad
Revenge is a very cold dish
None of it makes me glad
In fact, my actions turn me sad
I apologize for being right
I'm sorry for being wrong
But you have no blame in sight
Your silence is forever long
You have no idea the power of your song
No more apologies I'm through
You're not sorry, you haven't a clue
You seem to seek power in all you do
I can no longer tell what's really true
My feelings, my thoughts, rent is due
I cannot apologize
I refuse to be sorry for me
See things through my eyes
Maybe then you'll truly see
How I felt and wanted us to be
I take back my apologies
I'm sorry for nothing
You belong with the birds, bees, trees
I refuse to hear you sing
No more pain I allow you to bring
I apologize for these thoughts
I'm sorry I can't rise above
Please let's just draw lots
Or confess it wasn't love
Is it you or my bloody glove
The truth is it's both of us
If you hadn't given up so easy
If I had shaken off the rust
But we weren't ready to please
In the end, it simply didn't work
No More Apologies, No More Sorry
I can apologize for being me
I can say I'm sorry for what I do
It can be my fault for no more we
I can accept blame even if it's not true
Because let's face it, I'm stronger than you
I apologize because I love
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I regret making war over doves
That I treat you with neglect
Deep down I have the utmost respect
But I tire of apologizing for me
I'm only sorry when building us
If there exists no more we
Then I'd rather you go under the bus
What's it matter, if not I, you must
Then I apologize being so selfish
I'm sorry for being so bad
Revenge is a very cold dish
None of it makes me glad
In fact, my actions turn me sad
I apologize for being right
I'm sorry for being wrong
But you have no blame in sight
Your silence is forever long
You have no idea the power of your song
No more apologies I'm through
You're not sorry, you haven't a clue
You seem to seek power in all you do
I can no longer tell what's really true
My feelings, my thoughts, rent is due
I cannot apologize
I refuse to be sorry for me
See things through my eyes
Maybe then you'll truly see
How I felt and wanted us to be
I take back my apologies
I'm sorry for nothing
You belong with the birds, bees, trees
I refuse to hear you sing
No more pain I allow you to bring
I apologize for these thoughts
I'm sorry I can't rise above
Please let's just draw lots
Or confess it wasn't love
Is it you or my bloody glove
The truth is it's both of us
If you hadn't given up so easy
If I had shaken off the rust
But we weren't ready to please
In the end, it simply didn't work
Something Missing
January 14, 2010 - 18:25
Something Missing
I was more than happy by myself
I wanted none, quite full of wealth
I did as I please, feeling complete
I had no need for anyone to meet
I'm not saying I was happy
Some days I still felt crappy
But things were well you see
I was being all I could be
Then you came into my life
It was fun, there was no strife
You gave me just a little taste
Now everything else was but a waste
It grew in days what takes months
Boy did You exposed my fronts
As my heart did open up
My mind refused to say yup
It was my fault you see
The parting of you from me
And in your absence I saw light
Of my pride and how I lost sight
Now I feel something missing
I cannot fly, dance, drink or sing
It's much more than feeling empty
I can't imagine me, without we
Something Missing
I was more than happy by myself
I wanted none, quite full of wealth
I did as I please, feeling complete
I had no need for anyone to meet
I'm not saying I was happy
Some days I still felt crappy
But things were well you see
I was being all I could be
Then you came into my life
It was fun, there was no strife
You gave me just a little taste
Now everything else was but a waste
It grew in days what takes months
Boy did You exposed my fronts
As my heart did open up
My mind refused to say yup
It was my fault you see
The parting of you from me
And in your absence I saw light
Of my pride and how I lost sight
Now I feel something missing
I cannot fly, dance, drink or sing
It's much more than feeling empty
I can't imagine me, without we
The Fear We Love
January 14, 2010 - 10:32
The Fear We Love
Some of us are strong
Some of us are weaker
Yet all of us do wrong
Experience should make us meeker
Some of us put ourselves first
We don't consider or ponder
Quenching our own thirst
Never admitting why we wander
Our life is our own we say
I'm my own person, let me be
Which is how to walk alone each day
Never admitting the pain in me
No one wants to eat alone
We want to share life with another
Not someone who makes us groan
A lover, a friend, like a brother
But who comes first, them or me
Should we sacrifice ourselves for them
Who's to believe, do we trust what we see
Afraid to put the wrong person ahead
Breaking your spirit and your heart
A feeling we all learn to dread
Wishing we all were good and smart
We grow old, we're not invincible
We can't suffer rejection forever
So we learn to stick to a principle
And choose to love, well never
Life is easier to love just I
It's simple and we always keep going
But we need help to touch the sky
The love we want and need, always knowing
Why are we afraid to fall in love
Why do we fear giving another our life
Let's get to it, no more glove
But when we hurt, the cut, like a knife
Who should we love more
Why does it have to be a choice
It takes work the stuff of lore
To love yet stand and keep your voice
The truth is always in the middle
Compromise and trust can make it happen
Make big our hearts what once were little
When fate comes to that door, tappin
You put them first and take that chance
Hoping they do the same for you
But most times you never get to dance
Now fear is gone, bring on the blue
The Fear We Love
Some of us are strong
Some of us are weaker
Yet all of us do wrong
Experience should make us meeker
Some of us put ourselves first
We don't consider or ponder
Quenching our own thirst
Never admitting why we wander
Our life is our own we say
I'm my own person, let me be
Which is how to walk alone each day
Never admitting the pain in me
No one wants to eat alone
We want to share life with another
Not someone who makes us groan
A lover, a friend, like a brother
But who comes first, them or me
Should we sacrifice ourselves for them
Who's to believe, do we trust what we see
Afraid to put the wrong person ahead
Breaking your spirit and your heart
A feeling we all learn to dread
Wishing we all were good and smart
We grow old, we're not invincible
We can't suffer rejection forever
So we learn to stick to a principle
And choose to love, well never
Life is easier to love just I
It's simple and we always keep going
But we need help to touch the sky
The love we want and need, always knowing
Why are we afraid to fall in love
Why do we fear giving another our life
Let's get to it, no more glove
But when we hurt, the cut, like a knife
Who should we love more
Why does it have to be a choice
It takes work the stuff of lore
To love yet stand and keep your voice
The truth is always in the middle
Compromise and trust can make it happen
Make big our hearts what once were little
When fate comes to that door, tappin
You put them first and take that chance
Hoping they do the same for you
But most times you never get to dance
Now fear is gone, bring on the blue
Thursday, March 11, 2010
You Can, Can You
1/14/2010 - 01:48
You Can, Can You
You think you know
You believe you can go
The world is yours
You can win all wars
Do all you dream
But make no one scream?
Do nothing but win
Of course committing no sin
But at what cost
The price: you have lost
To win, a loss
You're never your own boss
You try and fail
No wind in your sail
Pick up the pieces
Iron your shirt, no creases
Get your mind right
Your clothes, not too tight
The motto: keep trying
Inside you feel like dying
Fight through the pain
In every loss, there's gain
It takes a toll
Can you perform this role?
But really can you?
Start to make yourself anew?
Make high from low
Because you believe it so?
But can you?
No, you cannot do
You wish it didn't hurt
Well you can't feeling like dirt
Actions speak louder than all words can
Tomorrow will always come, become a better man
You Can, Can You
You think you know
You believe you can go
The world is yours
You can win all wars
Do all you dream
But make no one scream?
Do nothing but win
Of course committing no sin
But at what cost
The price: you have lost
To win, a loss
You're never your own boss
You try and fail
No wind in your sail
Pick up the pieces
Iron your shirt, no creases
Get your mind right
Your clothes, not too tight
The motto: keep trying
Inside you feel like dying
Fight through the pain
In every loss, there's gain
It takes a toll
Can you perform this role?
But really can you?
Start to make yourself anew?
Make high from low
Because you believe it so?
But can you?
No, you cannot do
You wish it didn't hurt
Well you can't feeling like dirt
Actions speak louder than all words can
Tomorrow will always come, become a better man
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
How Do I Find The Word To Say I'm Sorry
January 12, 2010 - 14:12
How Do I Find The Word To Say I'm Sorry
How does one find the word to say "I'm sorry"
I'm sorry one, I'm sorry two, I'm sorry three?
Feeling sorry is not the way I want to be
This is not the side of me I wanted you to see
It's better to have nothing to be sorry for
To have no wrongs that I need to find a cure
But here we are with hearts feeling sore
As we add to each others' relationship lore
But imagine if I could find the way to express
How truly sorry I've been and I felt
There's so much more I would want to address
About us and this hand we were dealt
But nothing I do can make you understand
That words just don't mean it
But that is life, we cannot demand
Only hope this bit has not been turned to shit
If there's anything I could do to show you how I feel
It would be to say "I'm sorry" for giving you a raw deal
It would be to change the perceptions you have of me now
So that we could be together, eating some more cow
But I've failed, where many times I did succeed
To express how much I'm sorry, how I want to make things right
But that's the thing about you, you never had a need
You're just fine yourself, I just never saw your light
I misunderstood all that you did say
And I felt neglected in following your way
I wanted more of you, but I couldn't find the words
Now I have none of you, and all I have is words
Wise men say you have to let her go
That in being alone only she will know
Whether she could give me another chance
To show her I'm committed to creating our own dance
So I need to forge a better me, alone
Though I don't want go on feeling like a drone
Time will pass and soon she'll forget me
Nothing but a memory is all that I will be
She'll no longer wonder, what we could have been
She'll be fine apart and meet plenty more real men
But I felt I could be her one, her rock and her support
So she could be all she dreamed, developing our rapport
I remember our time however brief, was it but one day
That this experience has rocked me to my core
So with no other choice, I must reluctantly walk away
Without a voice, maybe I'll sit and remember a little more
And dream what might have been if I had found the word
To express what she means to me but sadly there is no word
How Do I Find The Word To Say I'm Sorry
How does one find the word to say "I'm sorry"
I'm sorry one, I'm sorry two, I'm sorry three?
Feeling sorry is not the way I want to be
This is not the side of me I wanted you to see
It's better to have nothing to be sorry for
To have no wrongs that I need to find a cure
But here we are with hearts feeling sore
As we add to each others' relationship lore
But imagine if I could find the way to express
How truly sorry I've been and I felt
There's so much more I would want to address
About us and this hand we were dealt
But nothing I do can make you understand
That words just don't mean it
But that is life, we cannot demand
Only hope this bit has not been turned to shit
If there's anything I could do to show you how I feel
It would be to say "I'm sorry" for giving you a raw deal
It would be to change the perceptions you have of me now
So that we could be together, eating some more cow
But I've failed, where many times I did succeed
To express how much I'm sorry, how I want to make things right
But that's the thing about you, you never had a need
You're just fine yourself, I just never saw your light
I misunderstood all that you did say
And I felt neglected in following your way
I wanted more of you, but I couldn't find the words
Now I have none of you, and all I have is words
Wise men say you have to let her go
That in being alone only she will know
Whether she could give me another chance
To show her I'm committed to creating our own dance
So I need to forge a better me, alone
Though I don't want go on feeling like a drone
Time will pass and soon she'll forget me
Nothing but a memory is all that I will be
She'll no longer wonder, what we could have been
She'll be fine apart and meet plenty more real men
But I felt I could be her one, her rock and her support
So she could be all she dreamed, developing our rapport
I remember our time however brief, was it but one day
That this experience has rocked me to my core
So with no other choice, I must reluctantly walk away
Without a voice, maybe I'll sit and remember a little more
And dream what might have been if I had found the word
To express what she means to me but sadly there is no word
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Sleepless (Poem/Song)
March 9, 2007 - 04:00
Sleepless
Sleepless, and feeling lost without you
Sleepless, and desperate to talk to you
Lying sleepless and day turns into night
Lying sleepless while night turns back to day
Waking up and painfully missing you
Waking up in cold sweats, thinking about you
Waking up, I'm crying and craving you
Waking up, knowing the next guy's fucking you
Do you smile, the way you smiled when I came?
Does your warm embrace comfort him the same?
Does he feel good, do you even call out his name?
Does he like your sweet taste, why'd you play this stupid game?
It's not about him, it's how you left me
It's not your lying, but why'd you lie to me?
I gave you all of me, but you could not respect me
As you leave me, I know it's best for me
Yet I still lie here sleepless, thinking about you
Lying sleepless, knowing you were not true
Pain and tears are the only things I feel for you
So I'm sleepless, not believing that we're through
I know all of this should come as no surprise
I could feel it festering, I saw through all your lies
I knew you were cheating, and now we've broken ties
Yet as you reject me, something in my heart dies
Are you happy? Then why do your eyes have that look?
Must you hate me? When all I ever wanted you took
No more lovers and friends, yet you're still an open book
Now as strangers, I see you're nothing but a crook
Cold and sleepless, nothing comforts me
I lie here sleepless, all because of you
Sleepless, I don't know him but he's not me
Sleepless, I know her and she's not you
No more sleepless, I can no longer blame me
Lying sleepless, feeling someone's fucking you
Crying sleepless, I need to take care of me
Sleepless, when I look in the mirror I see you
Are you happy? When all you care about is you
Will you ever know, how much I adored you
It's been 3 years and now I know the real you
Are you sleepless? Well that's all on you
Sleepless
Sleepless, and feeling lost without you
Sleepless, and desperate to talk to you
Lying sleepless and day turns into night
Lying sleepless while night turns back to day
Waking up and painfully missing you
Waking up in cold sweats, thinking about you
Waking up, I'm crying and craving you
Waking up, knowing the next guy's fucking you
Do you smile, the way you smiled when I came?
Does your warm embrace comfort him the same?
Does he feel good, do you even call out his name?
Does he like your sweet taste, why'd you play this stupid game?
It's not about him, it's how you left me
It's not your lying, but why'd you lie to me?
I gave you all of me, but you could not respect me
As you leave me, I know it's best for me
Yet I still lie here sleepless, thinking about you
Lying sleepless, knowing you were not true
Pain and tears are the only things I feel for you
So I'm sleepless, not believing that we're through
I know all of this should come as no surprise
I could feel it festering, I saw through all your lies
I knew you were cheating, and now we've broken ties
Yet as you reject me, something in my heart dies
Are you happy? Then why do your eyes have that look?
Must you hate me? When all I ever wanted you took
No more lovers and friends, yet you're still an open book
Now as strangers, I see you're nothing but a crook
Cold and sleepless, nothing comforts me
I lie here sleepless, all because of you
Sleepless, I don't know him but he's not me
Sleepless, I know her and she's not you
No more sleepless, I can no longer blame me
Lying sleepless, feeling someone's fucking you
Crying sleepless, I need to take care of me
Sleepless, when I look in the mirror I see you
Are you happy? When all you care about is you
Will you ever know, how much I adored you
It's been 3 years and now I know the real you
Are you sleepless? Well that's all on you
Monday, March 8, 2010
Me, Myself, and I
April 9, 2007 - 21:18
Me, Myself, and I
The more I know, the less I understand.
The more I understand, the less I know.
The less I know, the more I feel insecure.
The more insecure I feel, the more I question myself.
The more insecure I am, the more I don’t know myself.
The more I know myself, the more arrogant I become.
The more arrogant I become, the less I like myself.
The more I hate myself, the more certain I feel.
The more certain I feel, the more I know what I want.
The more I know what I want, the less I find what I like.
The more I like what I find, the less I’m sure of what I want.
The more uncertain I am, the more lost I feel.
The more lost I feel, the more depressed I become.
The more depressed I am, the more negative I think.
The more negative I think, the less good I see.
The less good I see, the more I hurt.
The more hurt I feel, the more I suffer.
The more I suffer, the more I question God.
The more I question God, the less I understand.
The more I question God, the more I believe in myself.
The more I believe in myself, the more I trust myself.
The more I trust, the better I feel.
The better I feel, the more confident I become.
The more confident I become, the more I feel I know.
The more I feel I know, the more narcissistic I become.
The more narcissistic I am, the less I care about.
The less I care about, the less I feel.
The less I feel, the more I know.
The more I know...
Me, Myself, and I
The more I know, the less I understand.
The more I understand, the less I know.
The less I know, the more I feel insecure.
The more insecure I feel, the more I question myself.
The more insecure I am, the more I don’t know myself.
The more I know myself, the more arrogant I become.
The more arrogant I become, the less I like myself.
The more I hate myself, the more certain I feel.
The more certain I feel, the more I know what I want.
The more I know what I want, the less I find what I like.
The more I like what I find, the less I’m sure of what I want.
The more uncertain I am, the more lost I feel.
The more lost I feel, the more depressed I become.
The more depressed I am, the more negative I think.
The more negative I think, the less good I see.
The less good I see, the more I hurt.
The more hurt I feel, the more I suffer.
The more I suffer, the more I question God.
The more I question God, the less I understand.
The more I question God, the more I believe in myself.
The more I believe in myself, the more I trust myself.
The more I trust, the better I feel.
The better I feel, the more confident I become.
The more confident I become, the more I feel I know.
The more I feel I know, the more narcissistic I become.
The more narcissistic I am, the less I care about.
The less I care about, the less I feel.
The less I feel, the more I know.
The more I know...
Friday, March 5, 2010
Loss & Missed Opportunity
August 6, 2007 - 00:57
Loss & Missed Opportunity
Watching your plane take off.
The touch of your skin, how it must have been soft.
Seeing the game from the sidelines.
Another night alone at home, never dressed to the nines.
Waiting for you to leave with things left unsaid.
Not saying what you wanted, and now they're dead.
That empty chair across from me at dinner.
My unplayed favorite numbers, now a winner.
A bottle of wine and just one glass.
Late again to class.
Never getting a chance to say goodbye.
Afraid to take a chance and say hi.
Sometimes it hurts to lose someone you love,
Now that they're gone what were you so afraid of?
Loss & Missed Opportunity
Watching your plane take off.
The touch of your skin, how it must have been soft.
Seeing the game from the sidelines.
Another night alone at home, never dressed to the nines.
Waiting for you to leave with things left unsaid.
Not saying what you wanted, and now they're dead.
That empty chair across from me at dinner.
My unplayed favorite numbers, now a winner.
A bottle of wine and just one glass.
Late again to class.
Never getting a chance to say goodbye.
Afraid to take a chance and say hi.
Sometimes it hurts to lose someone you love,
Now that they're gone what were you so afraid of?
Thursday, March 4, 2010
When I Stop And Think
July 6, 2006 - 12:30
When I Stop And Think
When I stop and think about it
I would much rather not be single
When I stop and think about it
I'd rather be with one person who cares
If I stop and think about it
I miss that person I was once with
But when I stop and think about it
That one person no longer exists
So I don't stop and think about it
And I don't feel that bit of emptiness
That the one person who doesn't exist
Once filled with exactly what I now miss
When I Stop And Think
When I stop and think about it
I would much rather not be single
When I stop and think about it
I'd rather be with one person who cares
If I stop and think about it
I miss that person I was once with
But when I stop and think about it
That one person no longer exists
So I don't stop and think about it
And I don't feel that bit of emptiness
That the one person who doesn't exist
Once filled with exactly what I now miss
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
The Moment Of Beauty
March 3, 2010 - 16:37
Beauty is buying a rose, as the store's about to close.
It's a forever bouncing ball, right before it hits the wall.
The car's smooth ride, moments before two cars collide.
That surging feeling down, as the plane leaves the ground.
Anticipation trying to cope, watching your favorite team not give up hope.
Your mind a silent sponge, as you jump and take the plunge.
Inside the outside door, about to brave a storm of yesteryore.
Discarding pain and the urge to sit, before you reach the summit.
The crisp smell only a breeze can bring, as the cold air makes your skin sting.
The moment before your lips meet, that first kiss will it be sweet.
What do these moments have in common?
The heart flutters and beats
You can't stay in your seat
The mind races and flies
You hope you haven't died
Consumed with feeling so alive
Like accomplishing a long drive
Better than falling in love
Akin to rising up above
You never forget the feeling
It leaves you breathlessly reeling
As she enters the room
It's like Heaven lowers the boom
All time stops and you look
Her beauty has left you shook
Beauty is buying a rose, as the store's about to close.
It's a forever bouncing ball, right before it hits the wall.
The car's smooth ride, moments before two cars collide.
That surging feeling down, as the plane leaves the ground.
Anticipation trying to cope, watching your favorite team not give up hope.
Your mind a silent sponge, as you jump and take the plunge.
Inside the outside door, about to brave a storm of yesteryore.
Discarding pain and the urge to sit, before you reach the summit.
The crisp smell only a breeze can bring, as the cold air makes your skin sting.
The moment before your lips meet, that first kiss will it be sweet.
What do these moments have in common?
The heart flutters and beats
You can't stay in your seat
The mind races and flies
You hope you haven't died
Consumed with feeling so alive
Like accomplishing a long drive
Better than falling in love
Akin to rising up above
You never forget the feeling
It leaves you breathlessly reeling
As she enters the room
It's like Heaven lowers the boom
All time stops and you look
Her beauty has left you shook
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